Thursday, December 19, 2013

Oh.. Holidays 2

What is it about Christmas that makes people so fucking mean?! Holy crap!

I'm really ready for 2014 to start... So many things. New house, new business, baby #2, & a wedding!

I'm incredibly exhausted. I'm looking forward to January. Can you say vacation?

Our next big venture is going to be in to mobile grooming. I've been with corporate America long enough. I'd like to spend less time with them & more time with my daughter. I feel like the area I live in is growing & traffic is bad. I think it's becoming more & more of a hassle to load up your dog(s) & drive to the groomer.

We have until August to get the down payment on the house. After that I can be done with apartments (cue snoopy dance).

On a side note: my daughter is beautiful & brilliant & takes the best picture with Santa I think I've ever seen. :)

Happy Holidays interwebs!

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Oh.. Holidays

I'm not a "Holiday Person" per say... I love Halloween & that's about it. My daughter & I spent the past two Thanksgiving Holidays with friends (a married couple), their daughter, & their parents. We spent our first Christmas sleeping all day & the 2nd with a roommates & their daughter. This will be my first family Thanksgiving in a REALLY long time.

That being said, my family will be here from New Mexico. There will be at least 9 people in my 1000sqft apartment. Kill me now.

My family has never done holidays well. Ever. Probably the reason I'm not a fan. Although, I'm hoping since it's in my house there will be peace. If not I'll just throw everyone out :)

Gobble! Gobble! Haha

I hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving <3

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Love

I have two wonderful human beings in my life I fall even more in love with daily.. I think that qualifies me as lucky.

My daughter will randomly drop what she's doing to come tell me a story (most of which I can't understand). It's fun to listen to her & make a big deal. I figure listening to her earnestly now will keep her talking to me when she hates me at 13.. She will just run up & kiss me. Just because. She's by far the greatest accomplishment of my life.

Then, there's my fiance: Thomas. He's quite the looker.. This helps my patience with him when he's playing Call of Duty: Ghost & screaming at an 11yro on Xbox live lol

Thomas has a sense of humor much like mine: trashy, snarky, smart assed, a little mean ;) We communicate well haha

My future husband makes sure all of his domestic duties are finished before he plays his games. He randomly buys me flowers. He puts our daughter & myself before himself in everything he does. He's always in my corner. He keeps my crazy at bay.

Thomas is absolutely my better half. Without him I'd probably be lost.

I've also got a group of girls that are like sisters to me.

I have a lot of things going the right way & that's a far cry from where I was just a year ago.

Counting my lucky stars. Daily.

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Mommy

No, I don't have a flat belly, I carried a baby for 9 months. I'm not obese, just not America's social standard of "beauty" I guess.

"Why don't you work out?"

I work a 40+ hr a week job & I would rather spend time coloring on the floor with my daughter or reading a book with her than be concerned with what someone I don't know thinks about my body.

"You need to wear different clothes!"

Well, I hate shopping. I'm too petite for women's clothes & I hate what the junior's clothing that fits me looks like. Mama's got no business in booty shorts.

I choose to spend my money on my daughter, not on myself.

I cook healthy dinners 6 nights a week. I clean house daily.

I'm too busy being a mom & an "almost" wife.

I assure you, no one hates the way I look more than myself.

My fiance thinks I'm beautiful & sexy. My daughter loves me & doesn't care if I have a belly pooch.

Moral of the story: Stop projecting

Monday, April 15, 2013

upside down & inside out

Life has been a bit crazy..  Some days more drama than I care to deal with.  The past two and a half years have had their fair share of ups and downs. My sweet baby girl has made it all worthwhile. She's my life.  I  couldn't have dreamt up a better kid,  even if I had tried.

 Recently,  someone has come into our lives. I wasn't looking for love when he walked in to my life. Man of my dreams? Maybe? I can say he has fallen into my life like he's supposed to be here.

 He loves me. Loves my daughter. We  jumped in head first. Sink or swim,  we're in this together. Forever?  Too soon to say.  We're not perfect &  that's ok.  He goes above &  beyond for my daughter &  myself.  He's absolutely my better half,  everything I'm not.

 He's doing his best to give BMad & me the life we've been living without for  the past year and a half.   He gives us more than we need or ask for.  He helps with baby duty &  housework.  He even cooks sometimes ;)

I'm super lucky. I wasn't expecting to be happy with someone.  After being abandoned &  made to believe I was the problem,  it's nice to have someone that sees all look the cracks &  still thinks you're not broken.